Another stable 3 month scan under my belt. It is difficult to believe that just over a year ago, I was going through the most difficult battle of my life. Now I am in a battle to gain my life back and resume my normal activities. Everyone assumes that after you win the battle with cancer, that life just goes back to how it was before. That is a lie. One that I am learning much about at this current point in time. Winning the battle against cancer is just the beginning. There are so many post cancer complications that people don't talk about (particularly for Brain Cancer). Radiation left me with intractable epilepsy; something we are still working to get under control. Working 8 hours a day is the most exhausting and taxing activity I have ever done and by Friday my body is so physically exhausted that I can barely move. Most people love Friday because it is the time when they can sleep in and enjoy the weekend. I love Friday because it allows me two days to fully recover from the week and prepare for another 5 day haul. Emotionally, I am riding a rollercoaster that sees its fair share of peaks and troughs. Some weeks I have quite a few peaks, others it is mostly troughs. When I'm having a particularly bad week, I work to go back and reflect on the past year and realize, I've come a long way.
On a more positive note, we are close to the Holidays! I am looking forward to actually being able to celebrate my birthday this year (without incident) as well as sit at a table with family and enjoy Thanksgiving dinner, instead of having to eat in bed because I'm too weak to get up. I haven't even given a thought to what I want to do for my birthday. At first I felt like I wanted to have a re-do, since I was unable to actually celebrate turning 30 last year, but now I think I'd be perfectly content with just spending time with the people who matter most to me.
The best news of the year? I don't have to go back to see my oncologist until January! That means, no more MRIs or oncologist visits for the year of 2015. People don't realize how stressful it is to always have to go to the doctor, so I am so happy that I can finish out the year without having to see my oncologist. I go back to see my neurologist in two weeks, and if all is going accordingly, I hope to be able to not have to visit her until next year as well! I am just so grateful to finally have a medical team that truly has my best interest in mind and wants to truly help me to get back to leading as normal of a life as I possibly can.
Have a great weekend and Wreck' Em Tech!!!
